Being Me

People that seem the strongest are usually the most sensitive. People who exhibit the most kindness are usually the first to get mistreated. The ones who take care of others all the time are usually the ones that need it the most. The first time I came across those quotes, I pointed to myself. That’s me. I spent years and years to help and understand others ( the people who I supposed to help and understand?), and I never asked them to help and understand me back until the point I felt tired and need their understanding on my circumstances. I wanted to stop to help and understand them. What I got then was mistreated. Many people actually are very-very selfish. Today my husband almost make me cry again, because suddenly , out of the blue he said after our little brunch at some café, that me, after 10 years marriage, is still the most nicest person he ever know. My husband was a teacher for 30 years. He met thousand of parents, and thousands of students, hundreds of colleagues and friends, he never met a person with warm personality like me and deep like ocean. Only my husband treat me well in my life, because he loves me and he know how to love somebody like me. The first time he made me cry was, when he said that he wanted to mend my broken heart through email. I just cried and cried in front of computer. I knew he meant it. That’s why I married my husband. I have right decision. We still love each other until know.

Back to Work

Back to Work When I started to work again, I was not as nervous as the very first time at my early twenty . I suppose because I know how to deal with my work and people better as I am now much mature and years of experiences dealing with people. Time went by quite easy. No problem. Partly because I did not think any bad/negative things as problems. I regard it as it is. Life. Get on with it. But, when this ‘bad things’ happened again, and again, and the victim is me, it’s really draw my other part of my sleepy soul attention to be awake. It disturb me. I try not to be hurt, but it is. The fact is wherever we are we always find these selfish, illogical people. And I have to deal with them. Again.